after the laughter (comes tears)
posted by max on August 18, 2008 at 10:52:57 PM
Dear YTMNDers,
It is a sad day in YTMND history. Our good friend fyrestorm has comitted suicide. I wish this were a joke, but I have received confirmation from his parents that this is very true. I will be re-posting his suicide note so everyone can pay their last respects.
On 08/18/2008 George jumped in front of an F train in New York City, ending his life.
RIP Buddy.
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I'm afraid I must now kill myself for real
Good bye to my internet friends forever!
But seriously folks, I really am killing myself now. I'm doing the cheesiest thing imaginable by posting my suicide letter in my LJ, but the irony of it is too hilarious to ignore and it's not out of a desire for attention, I mean good god, I'm killing myself, I don't need the attention. No, it's just so that the note will be easily found and read by all that it applies to.
I'm not going to post a long explanation about why I'm doing this. All I have to say is that this is what I feel is best. I know there will be people that will miss me, and I know there will probably be people that will be glad I'm gone. Of course, I'm sure there are also going to be a few people out there that believe this is a hoax, but let me assure you: I'm not trolling here. This is quite real!
The only thing I'm going to do is name names here and say my final words to the people that I have final words to say to. Some of these final words are going to be good byes and others bridge burnings.
Mom: I love you more than anyone else in the world. I know there are many times I haven't exactly shown that at all, but I want you to know it's true, and I think you do know that, but I just have to say it. You'll find a way to get on without me.
Dad: I know we have never really been close. At least now openly close, but just like mom, I love you dearly.
Grandma: I love you very much as well. You're going to have to be there for mom after this. I'm sorry to burden you.
Sue, Bobby, Michael: We've also never really been all that close, but we've grown a bit closer in the last year. Far closer than we were in previous years. Even though I don't think I've ever said it to you, I do love you guys.
Cody: Cody, you're the person that's making this the hardest for me. I'm not sure how this will affect you. I just want you to know that I love you very much. More than any other guy I've ever loved. That includes both Jeramie and Ira. I know I've talked about them a lot, and it's probably made you a bit doubtful about my love, but please rest assured that I loved you until the very end. PS, I'm sorry about the mess. It's not cool at all, I know.
Michael Francisco: Michael, you've done a lot for me. Please know that it doesn't go unappreciated. You can be a great guy, but other times you can be so heartless without even realizing it. Although sometimes I think you do. I love you very much as well.
Branden Loizides: This one's a bridge burning. Even though I said I forgave you for a lot of the shit you pulled, I never really did, and I guess now I never really will. One act in particular is one I never would have forgiven, and I think you know exactly what I'm referring to. You should be ashamed, and I hope you never forget about it.
Ira: Another "fuck you". You hurt me like nobody else ever has, and it's one of the factors in what I'm doing now. I hope you're happy.
John Williams and Howie: I wish you both the best. John, even though I hardly know you, I know that you're an amazing guy. I hope the very best for you. Howie, I didn't get a chance to talk to you after what happened to you, but unlike me, you've got a lot to live for. There's a bright future ahead of a bright guy here. Don't throw it away, please. And finally for both of you, I love you both very deeply. I feel kind of ridiculous saying that because I hardly know both of you, but it's true. It's a platonic love of course, but it's love nonetheless. Good luck guys.
And finally, my internet friends: Some of you saw throught he facade I put on online a long time ago. You knew there was a lot more to me than I let on, and I appreciate how some of you stuck with me no matter whether I was being sincere or a trolling jackass. And then some of you are just dumbasses who don't shit about anything to do with me. Everyone knows which part they belong under here; I think I've made that clear enough over the years. So to the people that will miss me online, good bye, but to the rest: fuck you.
And that about wraps it up. I'm sorry it had to be this way, but this is it, this is what I feel like I must do.
Don't feel too bad about it, though. It's not entirely out of depression or anything like that. A lot of it is simply boredom. I know that sounds stupid, but I'm bored of life. I want to know what comes next.
Bye.
Current Mood: suicidal <-- LAFF
Current Music: i dunno, something gothic for sure
It is a sad day in YTMND history. Our good friend fyrestorm has comitted suicide. I wish this were a joke, but I have received confirmation from his parents that this is very true. I will be re-posting his suicide note so everyone can pay their last respects.
On 08/18/2008 George jumped in front of an F train in New York City, ending his life.
RIP Buddy.
-------------------------------
I'm afraid I must now kill myself for real
Good bye to my internet friends forever!
But seriously folks, I really am killing myself now. I'm doing the cheesiest thing imaginable by posting my suicide letter in my LJ, but the irony of it is too hilarious to ignore and it's not out of a desire for attention, I mean good god, I'm killing myself, I don't need the attention. No, it's just so that the note will be easily found and read by all that it applies to.
I'm not going to post a long explanation about why I'm doing this. All I have to say is that this is what I feel is best. I know there will be people that will miss me, and I know there will probably be people that will be glad I'm gone. Of course, I'm sure there are also going to be a few people out there that believe this is a hoax, but let me assure you: I'm not trolling here. This is quite real!
The only thing I'm going to do is name names here and say my final words to the people that I have final words to say to. Some of these final words are going to be good byes and others bridge burnings.
Mom: I love you more than anyone else in the world. I know there are many times I haven't exactly shown that at all, but I want you to know it's true, and I think you do know that, but I just have to say it. You'll find a way to get on without me.
Dad: I know we have never really been close. At least now openly close, but just like mom, I love you dearly.
Grandma: I love you very much as well. You're going to have to be there for mom after this. I'm sorry to burden you.
Sue, Bobby, Michael: We've also never really been all that close, but we've grown a bit closer in the last year. Far closer than we were in previous years. Even though I don't think I've ever said it to you, I do love you guys.
Cody: Cody, you're the person that's making this the hardest for me. I'm not sure how this will affect you. I just want you to know that I love you very much. More than any other guy I've ever loved. That includes both Jeramie and Ira. I know I've talked about them a lot, and it's probably made you a bit doubtful about my love, but please rest assured that I loved you until the very end. PS, I'm sorry about the mess. It's not cool at all, I know.
Michael Francisco: Michael, you've done a lot for me. Please know that it doesn't go unappreciated. You can be a great guy, but other times you can be so heartless without even realizing it. Although sometimes I think you do. I love you very much as well.
Branden Loizides: This one's a bridge burning. Even though I said I forgave you for a lot of the shit you pulled, I never really did, and I guess now I never really will. One act in particular is one I never would have forgiven, and I think you know exactly what I'm referring to. You should be ashamed, and I hope you never forget about it.
Ira: Another "fuck you". You hurt me like nobody else ever has, and it's one of the factors in what I'm doing now. I hope you're happy.
John Williams and Howie: I wish you both the best. John, even though I hardly know you, I know that you're an amazing guy. I hope the very best for you. Howie, I didn't get a chance to talk to you after what happened to you, but unlike me, you've got a lot to live for. There's a bright future ahead of a bright guy here. Don't throw it away, please. And finally for both of you, I love you both very deeply. I feel kind of ridiculous saying that because I hardly know both of you, but it's true. It's a platonic love of course, but it's love nonetheless. Good luck guys.
And finally, my internet friends: Some of you saw throught he facade I put on online a long time ago. You knew there was a lot more to me than I let on, and I appreciate how some of you stuck with me no matter whether I was being sincere or a trolling jackass. And then some of you are just dumbasses who don't shit about anything to do with me. Everyone knows which part they belong under here; I think I've made that clear enough over the years. So to the people that will miss me online, good bye, but to the rest: fuck you.
And that about wraps it up. I'm sorry it had to be this way, but this is it, this is what I feel like I must do.
Don't feel too bad about it, though. It's not entirely out of depression or anything like that. A lot of it is simply boredom. I know that sounds stupid, but I'm bored of life. I want to know what comes next.
Bye.
Current Mood: suicidal <-- LAFF
Current Music: i dunno, something gothic for sure
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Fyrestorm was one of the first ytmnders that I ever started talking to. He was basically like a celebrity to me. 2 years ago I even met him in NYC and bummed around the city for a day. George was basically the easiest friend in the world to make . I will never forget that most memorable and insane afternoon I spent with this crazy dude from the internet named fyrestorm. He will be missed. Also, C*cks.
I haven't been on ytmnd in literally months, but after hearing about this, I feel I have to pay my last respects. I'm not good with death but here it goes, fyrestorm, you were a valuable person to this site. You may not have known it, but there were a lot of people who cared about you. RIP bro, you'll be missed. Is that good?
I've pretty much left ytmnd for 4chan a long time ago and I feel the same. This site just isn't kicking like how it used to be back in 2003. But if he was "bored" of life instead of depressed of life he should have simply got a hobby. I bet he felt nobody 'truely' loved him, which is 98% of the case. The other 2% of suicides are arab suicide bombers and christians bored of jesus.
Also, in b4 "but the media is reporting of an actual suicide on the tracks", look at the f*cking date and time of the news report and compare it to the date and time of fyrestorm's suicide blog entry. Example: http://www.nydailynews.com/archives/news/2004/05/04/2004-05-04_man_on_tracks_killed_by_f_tr.html IT F*CKING HAPPENED IN 2004
i'm not a regular here, i drop by now and then and don't really have a knowledge or history of this dudes impact or influence on this site. i will say it's pretty sad when people takes their own lives, but i find it hard to feel pity when i have known so many whose lives have been taken from them without a choice in the matter. sympathy is even harder to feel for someone who kills themselves and blames it on boredom. i feel bad for his family but that's where my pity ends.
Strange. I came on here to find links to my missing soundtrack volumes after switching computers.
I know nothing about him personally so I'm not going to make up any sappy nonsense. However he put a great amount of effort into all of the soundtracks. They were one of my favorite things about this site. I will miss him.
There are some boundaries you need to abide by when "joking around." This is something you just don't joke around about. I was honestly feeling grief and sorrow for Fyrestorm. I had much respect for you and your sites. Horrible mistake on your behalf and whomever was included into this imbecilic ruse. I will be downvoting everything submitted by Fyrestorm and whoever else was on this with him.
This doesn't seem real you know, just the way he wrote his suicide note. It's not too downbeat and depressing (well maybe a little) but this is a pretty sad thing, even though I didn't know the guy personally. I liked the soundtracks and all the stuff he did for YTMND. Well my condolences go out to his family.
This situation raises some interesting psychological situations and questions concerning death and the grieving process. It also, of course, could bring up serious questions about the kind of people who would fake such a thing (perhaps merely to see the response to answer a question similar to the former).
If fyrestorm is dead, may he rest in peace. If he is not dead, well, then he is not dead! Either which way, I suppose all we can do is hope for the best in either situation.
Probably the worst hoax of all time, really, when you think about it. Sort of one of those "wanted to get caught" hoaxes. Could've made an original suicide letter, Max could've waited a few days before posting this thing up with his crippled hand, and fyrestorm could've waited until he was more popular on this site other than being a remix soundtrack guy who had nothing else to share other than "durr teh FBI."
I hope when fyrestorm really dies, I'll be there to call it a hoax too.
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Well, he jumped infront of the subway train, which probably means that he was hit by the train, electrocuted, and then run over, all the while having his bowels evacuate. If I was going to kill myself, that would probably be the way that I wanted to go. RIP fyrestorm, I think you were a truly funny person, and I will always offer you my house if this is a hoax.
I searched through the obituaries and articles of New York City's news papers and found nothing pertaining to his death. Hard evidence or it didn't happen. And the fact that it is a complete copy of a suicide note from years ago add to the falsehood of it. Max, if you are in on this, which you obviously are, that is really low.
Just look at the time that the suicide note was posted in conjunction to when Max posted. And how would Max even freaking know fyrestorm's parents to call them? What, does Max have his phone number or something? If he had that, then he'd be real good friends with Fyre, so he'd be willing to help with a hoax near the bastard's birthday.
Either way, I hope fyre burns/is burning in an imaginary hell.
I usually get nervous when I hear someone has died, but just don't say anyone I'm upset. I keep it all inside of me, the mourn, the sorrow, the pain. I started my day today opening ytmnd and after a few comments on a few sites I stumbled upon this terrible news. I read the letter, started to feel really bad and sorry for someone I didn't even meet. I stopped all of my works thinking about life and psychological pain. Then I read the comments, started to feel confused. [continue]
The loss of a person is terrible, especially in a community where people even used to meet in real life. But what if something gets so big that you keep on searching for some more information about a guy who suddenly you want to know? Internet is strange, and I, just like many other people, are very sensible to reality (the bad one). I've been looking all the day and now the sky is dark, so it means I'll be going to be in a few hours. [continue]
Thank God that I'm out of my internship, because I'd be pretty pissed to have a dead body ruining my commute on the E train.
Seriously, though, this is sad as hell. I had a feeling that the YTMND soundtrack was going to be dead after #17, but now it quite literally is. He shouldn't have killed himself, he was so creative, and while I never knew the guy personally, he was likely an awesome guy too.
You know, what if he's just out of town or something and his roommates thought it would be hilarious to get on his LiveJournal and post the suicide note? Then his roommates posed as Fyrestorm's "parents" and contacted Max about it or something. Meanwhile, Fyrestorm is vacationing in Chile and has no idea this drama is going on. Possible?